tea in the pavillion

I was too busy enjoying myself to get many photos, but I did snap one shot of the spread before we dug in.  In the center, surrounding a small vase of flowers, is angelfood cake.  To the left, reading top to bottom is lemon merengues, gingersnaps, brownies with peanut butter chips, and honeydew balls with mint.  To the right is a stack of bacon, lettuce, tomatoe, and avocado sandwiches.  And to the right of theem is a plate of caramel/apple cookies that LG brought.  We were a small group - only 9, which meant we were able to get a group discussion going.  (any more than that, and we tend to break into smaller, more intimate chatteries.)  And toward the end of the time, we began sharing our experiences of being "visited" by people who have died.  I was surprised by how many people had dreamed of a loved one shortly after that person's death, and been comforted by the dream. which leads me to wonder - what are ghosts? 

There was a cat I loved - his name was Blue , and he loved me with complete, unstinting devotion.  He was with me during some of my hardest times, and when I finally had to have him put to sleep, I grieved  so sorely.  Then one night I dreamed that I saw him in the window where he loved to sleep.  He opened his eyes and looked at me with perfect blissful contentment.  I knew he forgave my failures and understood why I had to help him die, and he still loved me with absolute cat love.

Blue cat will help me die when the time comes.  I won't transition alone. 

Do you have ghosts?